Weddings and Such

So i went to my cousins wedding today. Before you read this post you should know two things about me. I am drunk (1) and i have a really close family (2).

The wedding was really nice. It was my second cousin or my first cousin once removed. I love her so much, i see my extended family more then most people see there immediate family. While i was sitting there i was really happy for her but kept thinking about myself and marriage. I know leggally i cant get married to a women. But to me (although legal issues are a big part) religously marriage is important to me. I want to have a ceremony one day, and have my family come together for a union under what would be god to recognize. Whether you beleive in god or not, i feel as Jewish tradition i should be able to do this. The thing is i want it to be just as accepted as any other marriage in my family and i dont know if it ever will be. Its hard to explain especially because i am drunk so i will stop now. I am really happy for my cousin though and she deserves this marriage so much.

Second i babysat for my cousin (about as distant as my cousin who got marrieds child would be to me) who was 5 months this weekend. He was so cute. I realized how much i want a child. There laugh is so genuine and innocent, and it is the best thing in the world. Okay i will go now goodnight.

~sock